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I have some art for sale

Here and There. Banned In Germany.

This is a video I made to practice my video edit skills from youtube clips.  Its ok until the end.  I got a little lost with what I had left to add so that I could get the lyrics I wanted to the finish but it is based on my view on politics and travels.

Lucid

Cheated of a a life imagined
Out of darkness the realities I pressed
are only for show to innocent minded

A lesson learned,choices made, and actions taken.
Looking for the light
Every night i pray for you back in me

Raped illusions of grander fates
The decision to give up on what destiny planned
gave new path options for creation

A lesson learned, choices made, and actions taken.
Looking for the light
Every night i pray for you back in me.

Manifestation of  false fantasy
Exploit all that is believed
to bring the real to life.

Charted

I’ve met you three times.
They say it’s a charm.
You most certainly are.
Bursting conversations of the constellations.
Four of a kind, two gemini's
Painted my reflection
It pointed in your direction.
Still unknowing of what will come.
Second, I pass you by
You say hi
Surprised that such a hottie invited me to the party.
Sorry I don't attend.
Time played its part
Destiny told me on chart
The day my true love would appear.
On that day
I heard him say
come this way but we chilled on cypher.
Learning new thought patterns
From my teacher.
Giving me no lecture on how I live
but understanding the love I give
Is only in time
 Gonna be true till the day I’m through odyssey of enlightenment.
You are why I do what I do.
I don’t want the same mistakes to happen with you.
Your heart is special and deserves real love.
So until I rise above
all lame feelings of doubt and distrust
we must be apart
till I can start
trusting again.

Good deed?

The path of life is not always easy and sometimes a bit of help can push you in the right direction.

 I was driving up to the city a few days ago and saw a person walking on the highway in the cold (I jumped in the back seat just in case he was a criminal).  He was a young man coming all the way from Virginia looking to meet natives and learn the culture.  He offered us bread and fudge as payment (we never not accept).  While driving into town we offer him places that he can go for help or even work for food.  When we drop him off he doesn't go into the store that we tell him can offer guidance to places that can help, so I figure it is because he may be ashamed although his presence is of a clean cut nature.  I tell my mom to turn around and that I will offer him shelter until monday.  So then we take him to the Cabellas where he can pick himself up a cheap sleeping bag and then took him to a chinese buffet so he can eat.  When we ate at the buffet I ask him several questions about his age, family, why he is doing what he's doing and he seems to be fourth-coming.  It was a style of life that I heard of before, you know the type to work on organic farms and learning about other religions.  I told him of several places in California that offer living accommodations for making hiking trails and even offer to ask someone I know who offers a cabin in the woods in repayment of watching their winter home. (I hope this man gets back to me soon.) We go to the grocery store and I ask him what he wants to eat while here and he was ok with all the fruits and veggies I purchased plus he was a vegan so I got him some versions of that sort of food too.  We bring him back to our home and he is very humble, I give him a couch to sleep on in my living room.  He just went to bed. (I left some pills out to see if he would take them, he didn't so I know he isn't a druggie :) ) The next morning I say hello, tell him to shower, and then he leaves to walk around the town.  He comes back for an hour and then leaves again.  I didn't bother to ask what he was doing. It seems as if our communication has reached a dead point. I have nothing in common with him. It was superbowl sunday so Im watching the big game in my downstairs living room and even offer him some bud but he doesn't smoke.  At this point it is feeling awkward. He would go upstairs for long periods of time so I went up there cause I was a bit iffy about him up there so long but my mother locked her room and he was nowhere to be found, so then I felt comfortable.  He comes back during the last half of the superbowl and we watch in silence.  He continues to write in his journal and I am doing some beadwork.  But the show New Girl comes on (my absolute favorite)!! and he asks me to change the channel but I said it was my favorite show then he says the joke they made about panties makes his mind corrupt.  Then Im thinking WTF oh shit I have some weirdo church guy staying with me.  I don't want to be one to judge for his beliefs but I continue to watch the show. He goes upstairs and pretty much chills in the upstairs living room for most of the night. I just went into my room and put a block on the door (just in case).  So now it is the next morning and I get up and go to the restroom but then I see a shadow going toward my room so I open the door and he is standing there.  It was just weird because he made a comment about how cold my room was. (so why would he be going into my room? hence the block on the door when I slept).  Im in my room now because I don't want to have some awkward conversation about god.  I want to take a shower but I hope he doesn't come into my room.  I am always one for helping, especially because he was wearing a red lumbar jack shirt so I thought it was a sign that I needed to save him.    I won't be doing this again. I think I will only help people I know personally or work in a shelter to help them. I cannot trust anyone enough around these parts.   Maybe personal issues but you never know in a place like this.   I would still like to find him a warm place to sleep I just can't have a stranger in my home.

Im just frustrated because he says there is no community of homeless to help. I gave him a place for two days.  It is fucking monday and nice out.  Go get a fucking job. Mother fucker is sleeping on the couch.  I need my living room to get my beadwork for sale made. fuck.   He would probably have a better chance than me.  We are in a church town.

  I have professional experience but still can't get hired.  I literally walked through this whole fucking town and hand wrote my damn applications, its me so apparently I don't need a job.

Vegas

I watched a video tonight on the 10 Things Las Vegas Tourists need to stop doing.   I thought it was very interesting, but I have a few rules of my own.

Now Vegas is the top destination for brides/grooms, gamblers and party people.  We love that you chose Paradise in a desert to explore your deepest indulgence but there are several rules that should be followed so that you aren’t known as “that guy” *cough* cough* Scott Disik…… but Discretion is Vegas’ key feature. 

Rule 1.   Whooo!!!  Fuck Yeah!!  Vegas!!!!!  YES it hurt my ears and was fucking annoying.  I know!!!!   I get that you are dressed head to toe in your favorite Fear and Loathing outfit, so freaking excited that you are walking down a street with a vodka flavored icee that you couldn’t even shell out enough money to get the extra shot that actually makes it a good drink, But really man. Stay out my face.  Here’s a High Five now walk the fuck on!

Rule 2.  I get that you are parents and brought your kids for all the height regulated rides but don’t complain in your drunken stupor about how sexually heated some free panty giveaway at Victoria’s secret is affecting your child’s development.  Just stay at the circus, or get a background-checked nanny from the front desk.

Rule 3.  Open bar!!! We all love that. Yes, but please for the love of god returning over and over collecting a row of drinks before the deadline and not opening your bottle at your table without tipping is hella lame.  Maybe get a fucking prepaid punch card if you must have bar drinks. ;)

Rule 4. Brides and Grooms, I love the parties and all the games and yes we do offer some comps but please don’t expect EVERYTHING for fucking free. Those are reserved for the gamblers who reached their tier.

Rule 5.  If you are not born in Vegas you are just a visitor who maybe lived here for a really long time. (10 plus years is grandfathered in.)

Now that brings me to Rule 6.  Locals on guest-lists are a host or promoters way to weed out the bottle poppers.   You still have to wait in line maybe even pay on an event night you are not that special.

Rule 7.  Ladies, ladies, ladies.   When we invite you to come for the free swag we are expecting you to stay after and buy drinks.  Don’t get in a damn fight cause you have to wait in line for your free shoes or purse.

Rule 8.  We can feed the models but not a lot.  You are invited because you are hot. Don’t bring your boyfriends unless they are paying.  It’s a single ladies only dinner.

Rule 9.  Just because the cocktail waitresses and models dress to impress doesn’t mean they are charging. If you want that, just go over the hump to Pahrump.

Rule 10.   Now to the VIP’s ……..  I will do everything in my power to make all your "wishes" come true.  Remember that dollar is too much but a thousand is never enough.

We appreciate your visit.

work in progress

STFU
Is all I have to say to you, is that a clue
STFU STFU
Creepin with those eyes
STFU STFU STFU
Those are just a lie
STFU STFU STFU
Watchin for a prize
that don't even belong to you
A room full of judge, has nothing left to say to you
Madea's done with this FN play
Frying Pans, cooking eggs, swinging bats, crackin screens

That Kush (blah Blah Blah)   Im not going to finish this. its dumb and frustrating just like my Ex) Im over it.

Lucky ya even got a hit
Kush
that bush
Tamara (Miz) Maria
I let ya keep your balls, stay off my walls.

Running Running Running
Can't seem to get away fffast enough
Your pressure sucks me in
Take away my only chance at happiness
Your jaw clenched and eye winked
sending signals on what I should think
This incessant need to grow from the apple tree
I took a bite
Forever changed by choices made
A path still lies before me
It only takes a strength understood from glory
A story of past
A skin that has peeled
has healed
grown stronger
so you are no longer.


this is a bunch of random shit. Im working on my wording for a new art series.  Can't wait to see who steals this too.

Parallels

Next to you
Is my throbbing heart
No longer in the life imagined Man of the night, can give me insight
Seeing things that aren't really there
Puzzles of synchronicity
Push this game deeper
Playing with fire
Knowledge of my feeling
but never reciprocating
Physical is what I crave
Once accomplishment occurs
What will i do next?
Stay in this infatuation
I crave the change
As I sit here in my ponder
Physical action is the only reaction
Did his heart burn through?
I close my eyes but now think of you.
Counting down
Push for reality
Not some game of mentality
A king of your world
and a Queen in mine
We only pass time in parallels.

Cinnamon

Push forward and grab my hip
Breath into me
Cinnamon on your tongue
heats my insides
A slow passion grows strong
building the courage to say
The cinnamon on your tongue
heats my insides
Go deeper, taste the wet
share your joys so I can say
Cinnamon on your tongue
heats my insides
Push forward and rise
so I can taste
the cinnamon on your tongue
Hold me down, I can't fight it
Squeezing so tight
Drink in the flavor from the cinnamon on your tongue

In General

In the night I see the true you
Fill the air to Feel the air
The movement in your touch puts me in a rush
Don't let the still come til tomorrow
Fill the air to Feel the air
Surround yourself in electric lights
Neon beams from within
But don't let the dark suck you in
Fill the air to Feel the air
The moment will come that brings you to your knees
Drop
A light will always burn, the world will always turn, I will always yearn for
A burst to fill the air so I can feel the air.

Italian Legend

As whatscookingamerica.net states: The word "sauce" is a French word that means a relish to make our food more appetizing.  Sauces are liquid or semi-liquid foods devised to make other foods look, smell, and taste better, and hence be more easily digested and more beneficial.  

I am taking my condiment cooking a step further and have attempted a homemade Spaghetti Sauce.

Ingredients

1lb angus ground beef
1 can tomato paste
1 green pepper
5 medium size ripe tomatoes
2medium onions halved
12 button mushrooms
5 garlic cloves
1 tbsp oregano
1/2 tbsp basil
2 cups water/redwine
olive oil

I have been utilizing my amazing chef's rival for all the chopping and mixing.

Chop the garlic cloves and set aside.
In a pot, fry beef and add 2 tsp of chopped garlic, and use remaining garlic for sauce. 
Add 1 tsp of salt.
Fry beef and garlic until beef is brown.
Set aside
Finely chop halved onion and set aside in a bowl.
Also chop the green pepper, button mushrooms and tomatoes and set aside.
Pan fry onions,green peppers and chopped garlic in a little olive oil until onions are cooked.
Add oregano and basil.
Add beef, tomato paste and chopped tomatoes in mixture
Add 2 cups of water and allow sauce to simmer over low heat.
Stir occasionally for about 45 minutes or until sauce thickens
Add salt, pepper and oregano to taste.

This came out amazing!!!
I didn't add water but I did add some Barefoot Merlot and it changed up the taste.

The taste wasn't what I was used to but it did come out delicious and if you have any leftover i recommend adding corn, stewed tomatoes, red peppers, and macaroni noodles with a bit more water and you can end up with goulash.

SALSA SPECTACULAR

After the incident with squash, I said the next post was going to be about a new cd player, but turns out you can pay friends to clip wires for you, so the homeboy did his magic and the stereo was installed no problem, Plus, Sticking to encounters with food will be more fun.

In my attempts to become a foodie, I have gained some new culinary tricks, I discovered a clever contraption while doing training for a new job.  Yes people I am finally working in the food business again!  The job is similar to the *shamwow guy*, but I'm much prettier.  Also, Instead of cleaning up messes I get to make them.  I know what you may be thinking this girl is just self-promoting to make some money.  Yes, I am poor and do work on a commission only basis (hint, hint wink, wink) anyway back to the machine I discovered or the machine that discovered me.

The Chef's Rival!!!  This thing is amazing!!  It is a very special machine with heavy-duty blades that can cut everything from vegetables to cooked meats ten to twenty times faster than by hand.  I can separate my eggs for egg white omelets for breakfast. It can wash my delicate berries and herbs and when it’s time for dinner, I can whip a wonderful desert like strawberry mouse or a shake.  It is AMAZING.  Since I've gotten this machine my diet has completely changed I'm eating healthy for the first time in years.   I have already lost 5 lbs!!!  That's a lot considering I don't work out anymore.  I recommend any person who lives an active lifestyle and doesn’t want to spend time in the kitchen over their gourmet meals to purchase this machine.  Like I said before I do work on commission and if you want to purchase you need to reply on your interest and we can figure a way for you to get one if you are not in the greater Denver area.  I am doing my demonstrations locally and if you would like to catch a show please contact me for dates and times.  I do appreciate any help I can get, as I am a poor college student trying to pay for my tuition.

The Chef's Rival is famous for its 60 second Salsa Fresca.  I thought this would be a great way to introduce you to one of the many flavorful and nutritious meals this machine offers.

Ingredients

2     medium size ripe tomatoes

1/4 medium size onion

4 sprigs cilantro

2 cloves of garlic

1 tsp garlic salt

2 tbsp lemon juice

1 jalapeno (1/3 for mild, 2/3 for medium, all for hot and spicy

Directions

Put all the ingredients in your Euro-Gourmet Chef's Rival and mix to consistency desired.  Euro-Gourmet Chef's Rival spins make finer cuts.

Serve with tortilla chips.

Personal tip:  I like to boil the skin off of my tomatoes add a little honey to sweeten.

Please feel free to let me know of any tips you may have on making a great salsa.

BAD BUD

What it should look like

 Life has always thrown me curveballs and this year is no different.  I am not as financially fit as I used to be, so in an attempt to do things myself, I have come to realize that I am and expert of nothing.

My first attempt at cooking a 5 star meal didn’t go so well.
Lets start with the item I chose.  Spaghetti squash.  Spaghetti squash is part of the winter squash family, it comes in colors of pale yellow to ivory.  When you cut it open, use a fork to scrape through the flesh so the squash separates into long spaghetti-like strands, hence the name.  The crisp texture and mild flavor tastes great in any pasta as well as on its own because of its ability to absorb flavor.

I decided to make my own creation of spaghetti and meatballs.

1 Spaghetti squash

1 can of diced tomatos

2 cans of tomato sauce

1 can of tomato paste

1 T. oregano

1 t. salt and pepper

2 T. Italian spices

2 turkey patties

Microwave

Frying Pan

Baking Pan

Things started out great.  I took the two turkey patties an threw them in the microwave to thaw, then put the patties on a frying pan and cooked until brown.  I chopped up the cooked meat and strained the fat, proceeded to add everything but the spaghetti squash.  Once my sauce was heated I put the Spaghetti squash in the baking dish and poured the sauce on top.  I felt a need for cheese so I found some pizza hut packets of parmesan cheese in the cabinet and thought, why not.

You see I am doing everything without recipe directions.  How hard could this be?

I put my beautiful creation in the oven at 350 and let it bake.

I went downstairs and started playing video games.  Apparently I passed out. I woke up 2 hrs later to the smoke alarm.  To my dismay the dish was destroyed!  It has been 1 week and I still can't get the burnt food off my pan.  I guess I am not a chef.

The burnt pan

Next week I attempt to install a cd player to my truck.  Wish me luck.